Dear Chrissy

A love letter to myself

Day 6 of #7DaysForEveryBody challenge – Compliment Yourself.

This is the most difficult writing assignment you’ve ever tackled. Let me begin by saying I’m proud of you.

Stop rolling your eyes. I know you better than anyone. There are some things you need to know.

I love you. Like, I really love you. I love your short squishy body. I love your pale skin and your dark hair. I love your silliness. I love your thirst for knowledge. I love that you can look at a painting by Frida Khalo and cry and two hours later watch an episode of Archer and laugh until you pee your pants. I admire your passion and I’m proud of your activism.

I love you for your strong faith in God and your understanding and acceptance of science. Please don’t believe the lies your mind tells you when you’re lying in bed unable to sleep. That cacophony of noise is nothing but lies. Ignore the so called beauty magazines. They will only make you feel ugly. You were made perfect in the image of God. Fearfully and wonderfully your life was given purpose from the moment you were conceived. Your beauty shines bright and spreads wider and farther than wildfires. Your joy is infectious. Your kindness spreads like sunshine after a storm.

I know you’re blushing. And now, you’re rolling your eyes again. I told you; I know you better than anyone. I’ve felt your heart break from the inside. I was there when your soul and spirit were crushed. I know your hopes, your dreams, and your fears. I hear the prayers you whisper from the deepest corners of your heart every night.

You need to know that you are an incredible human being. I admire how lovely, tough, and soft you are. You were not supposed to be here. You were not planned.

You were born in a rough neighborhood in a rough town to a single mom the world gave no breaks to. But you didn’t wallow in it. You focused on the love in your home with your mom, your sister, and your brother. You didn’t lament what you lacked. You lived and laughed with what you were blessed with – a family that loves you.

And you are loved. You are so loved. Life hasn’t been easy. But, rather than let it run over you, you’ve figured out a way around the obstacles.

You’ve raised a lovely daughter to be a smart, kind, compassionate, empathetic, lovely human being.

You chased dreams and turned them into accomplishments

You’ve raised your voice for the causes and the people you believe in even when your friends and family told you to be quiet

You’ve sacrificed and fought to help your daughter fight mental illness, fought against your own anxiety and depression, and still had energy to be a voice for others living with mental illness

You are a rock star. You don’t see the world as a broken, fallen, cesspool of sin and hopelessness! You see the world as a big ball of magic and wonder filled with places to visit, corners to explore, weird and interesting things to see, touch, smell, and taste.

You’re not afraid to learn new skills. You know there is no end date for the timetable to learn new things

We’ve made a lot of mistakes these past 46 years. We’ve made a few wrong turns. We’ve broken a few good hearts. But my only regret so far is that it’s taken me this long to tell you how much I admire you. My biggest failure is that I’ve failed to encourage you. I let all the bad little voices in your head whisper things you should never had to hear, things you didn’t need to hear.

But sweetheart, those are little voices. There is only one voice you need to hear and that is the Holy Spirit inside your heart. God’s love for you is unconditional. God made you short and unathletic. God chose not to give you a beautiful singing voice nor the grace and elegance of a ballerina. God designed you, and you were designed with purpose. God doesn’t see all the things you hate about yourself. God doesn’t see all the things society says are wrong with you. God sees you, as you are, as you were designed and created. And, you are loved. You are so loved. You are loved so very much. You are loved by your daughter. You are loved by your family. You are loved by your friends. You are loved by God who made your heart, your mind, and your soul. You were made in God’s image. You were made to love and to be loved.

It all starts with loving yourself.

Today, I commit to never leave you searching for love, affirmation, or acceptance. I commit to reminding you to never seek anyone’s approval. I commit to reminding you every day that Jesus died for you, and you are worthy of that sacrifice.

Because today and every single day

YOU are loved.

YOU are significant.

YOU are worthy.

YOU are kind.

YOU are a light.

YOU are bright.

YOU are enough. You are so enough. Never again try to be anything or anyone other than who you are.

I love you more. Always.

Advertisements

Leave a Reply