First, to my blog followers I want to say thank you for following me, reading all my words, and supporting me. I am so grateful to have you all in my tribe.
Next, I apologize for the lack of posts lately. I’ve been busy managing life, which has been quite overwhelming lately. My daughter’s mental health spiraled downward. The medication regime she was on to treat her bipolar II, anxiety, and major depressive disorder just wasn’t working. We fought against overwhelming anxiety that gave her daily panic attacks and night terrors. Her bipolar swung to the manic end of the spectrum which brought on severe OCD, and trouble sleeping (on top of the night terrors 🙄), and her depression left her numb, spiraling downward to hopelessness and despair. So she did the bravest thing I’ve ever seen her do. She put her new job and all of her future plans aside and chose to get inpatient treatment for her mental health. This hospitalization was different from the last. During her last hospitalization her primary focus was simply to get out of the hospital. She blew off her outpatient treatment. But this time was different. This time she chose to go in, and she went forward with purpose. She wanted to get well. She spent seven days in the hospital. Her medications were switched, monitored, and adjusted. She participated in group therapy. She reflected on what factors in her life trigger her mental health in a negative way. After her release she spent 6 days in the outpatient hospital program and put all of her energy into learning skills and techniques to help her manage her disease on a day to day basis. Did all of this cure her? Did she emerge free of anxiety, depression, bipolar, and OCD?
But she came home stronger, centered, more confident, and happier. She is doing great. I am so proud of my daughter for putting her health first. The decision was costly. Some family and friends were uncomfortable with the idea that she was in a psychiatric hospital. She lost her job. But what she gained far outweighs what she lost. Situations like this give you clarity. You find out pretty quick who is in your corner. My daughter’s childhood friend proved her unwavering love and devotion. She supported my girl every day through the whole ordeal. And while some family kept their distance, others joined in the process of helping her on the road to wellness.
In the middle of this, one of my cats was diagnosed with chronic renal failure. For awhile we were not sure if she would be with us at Christmas. I’m happy to report that Daisy Mae is stable and comfortable. We know that we are on borrowed time but we are choosing to focus on the joy she brings every day rather than the fear that each day may be the last.
And in the middle of this chaos and upheaval, I chose to leave the company I’ve worked at for nearly three years and start a new job with a different company.
It’s been an eventful couple of months. As the year winds down I’ve started thinking about 2019. What do I want to do? Where do I want to go? Where do I want to be? I’ve got a few goals written down, and a couple of passion projects outlined.
One of those projects is this blog. I’ve been trying to work out what niche I want my blog to fit into. What do I want my readers to gain from visiting my site? I’m so excited to tell you that starting in January 2019 you are going to see a refreshed Michigan Wonder Woman site! This blog will be dedicated to self-care. Posts will be grouped around three main themes – Refresh, Nourish, and Connect. I’ll tell you more about these later.
For now, I want to say Merry Christmas to my Christian friends, Joyous Kwanza to my African American friends, Happy Chanukah to my Jewish friends, Happy Solstice to my pagan friends, and to those I have missed I wish you joy in whatever you are celebrating. My wish for all of you is peace, love, and joy.